Letting go.

When we moved 4 years ago, I packed and hauled SO much stuff. Only because I thought it was my ‘identity’. These pieces and parts of my past, they had to come along. Perhaps because it is proof that I lived? Parts of my life in the past? I was the keeper of the ‘piece’. But WHO cares about it besides me? As long as my memory holds out, I can remember the things I was involved in. Trivial as they were, they live in my heart.

So now I have the job of cleaning the closets that hold these boxes of past ‘treasures’. Time to let them go.

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Up in smoke — before I change my mind!  The pages turning, one by one, with the heat of the flame. The snowbank turning sooty around it. I could see the words as they fell. But this time it didn’t hurt. It was time.

Getting older is a time of letting go. As much as I hate the thought, it’s reality.  Mourning happens on a lot of different levels. I still mourn things that are gone. But today’s leaving was OK. And as I left the ash pile, fresh snow fell…turning the ground white once more. A nice confirmation.

Why do I struggle so with my identity– when I KNOW whom I belong to?

Please let my heart hold that ONE true thing.

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Inhale~Exhale

Moments. They are ALL we have. They are all we are promised in this life. With sorrows all around us, how do we live and cherish each moment? I am still learning. So many years behind me…never knowing how many before me. I need to cling to today. Only today.

dew drop moments (8x10, 11x14, 16x20)

I was given a gift this week. A bracelet made from copper and Unakite. This stone’s nickname is ‘living in the now’. Finding the beauty. How appropriate. How beautiful.

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My prayer this morning is to not waste these fleeting moments I am gifted with, however that might unfold.

To simply be aware.  And thankful.